19th February 2012 @ 19:13 [3 months ago]
Mmm, tough ones.
Person I like: I’m not entirely sure I liiiiiike anyone at the moment, though there are a couple of people I do like though: I don’t really meet new ‘in real life’ people sadly, or if I do they already have boyfriends. There was someone who affected me and it’s been tough to get beyond. As it’s recently sort of been happening again it feels somewhat familiar, especially given the circumstances, so I’m being cautious not to let it happen again unless it is mutual. Although the first person did nothing wrong and I knew it was a long shot, it still stung me and it wasn’t their or my own fault.
Person I had a crush on: Again, this is a tough one to answer. I don’t really tend to get harmless crushes, I seem to go full-blown, other end of the scale. Probably partially because the person has always been unavailable in some form or another (friend of a friend who likes her/boyfriend/lives 400 miles away etc.). The first person, I don’t feel anything towards really any more, but we’re still friends and worked together this Christmas, and the other, again we’re still friends but don’t have much contact any more for various reasons but I’m coping a lot better now. As this is written in the past tense, I’m leaving it in the past tense.
I guess these two answers aren’t that great are they, because they’re not really letters to them? It’s a bit hard when there isn’t really that person you like at the moment and the people you had a crush on were probably a lot more than just a crush. The first person I don’t have anything to say about any more as I don’t really care, and the latter I’ve said all I’m willing to say. I do’t have much to say about either because they haven’t really hurt me or I’m not bitter or anything any more (if I was), or it’s a bit too recent, just I guess a case of bad or unfortunate timing etc.
Sorry for being boring and cryptic, maybe other questions will produce better answers!